Christyslade's Blog

Broken Expectations

christyslade — Tue, 24 Mar 2009 01:18:56 +0000

So… I’m booking the flight to come to Fla… needing to have some R&R. I had a great flight, Cheryl, my BFF, picks me up and we head to eat a fabulous dinner @ Olive Garden and then my mind starts thinking… the beach, the beach, when am I going to see those waves? I have thought about nothing else before this trip but laying on the beach and feeling the rays and doing nothing eles… but once we hit her house, I CRASH!! Holy cow- ready for bed by 10:00!!! My body is telling me how long I have been going and it says it’s time to STOP!

So this morning I wake up even though my body says NO and start reading Francis Chan’s Crazy Love and “the beach” pops up again. As I wait for Cheryl to get home, I anticipate this day on THE BEACH… my body once again says NO! All my mind is thinking about is those rays but my body is so sleepy then as I look out the window all I see is rain! By the way, it hasn’t rained here in MONTHS!! So… you know what that means.. NO BEACH!!

My mind was disappointed as I saw the rain b/c I had expectations -so when they are not met am I disappointed!!

Sometimes, I have to learn to just know when it’s not going to happen! Sure going to the beach is a small let down but what about when people let you down? What is our reaction? Do we let them know or do we just sit in our disappointment?

Life is full of disappointments, people let you down, the money doesn’t come through, the kids don’t make the choices you wished they would and so on.

If you’re dealing with broken expectations… take a look at your expectations, are you setting them too high in some cases or do you need to know how to better handle the disappointment? Maybe we should just come to the realization that they’re just not going to happen and it’s OK!! Another thing i have learned is to avoid sitting in that disappointment too long… it can really get ugly in there!!! Check this out…. this is how your emotions run:

YOU HAVE AN EXPECTATION- THAT EXPECTATION IS NOT MET SO YOU ARE DISAPPOINTED, DISAPPOINTMENT TURNS TO HURT, HURT TURNS TO ANGER, ANGER TURNS TO BITTERNESS AND NOW YOU ARE STUCK!!!

So I guess I’m just taking a look at my expectations and will try to not go too far into this process…

What has disappointed you today? I would love to hear about it…

Crazy Weekend

christyslade — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 03:49:07 +0000

Holy cow- this weekend has been insane!! Taylor’s gym hosted a gymnastics meet at the Cartersville High School, Donnie and I worked are booties off!! Friday – 4:30-10:00, Sat. 1:00-12:00 Yeah – you read that right (11 hours) MIDNIGHT!! UGH!! Then Sunday 6:30 – 9:30…. so the Slades are POOPED!! Taylor also competed and had a pretty good meet!! She has gotten so strong on bars now that when she scored a 9.25 we were DISAPPOINTED!! Isn’t that crazy??? It wasn’t long ago that she barely could get an 8!!! It’s crazy how strong she has become this year!! She ended up taking 2nd place all around.. way to go TAYLOR!!

Ty went to Dare2share Friday and Saturday and came home sick – he’s running around 100 fever now… and still wanting to go to school tomorrow! He kills me how he hates missing!! I think it has something about his girlfriend and baseball!! He will do anything to get to school… I have to say though.. since I haven’t seen him all weekend… I am looking forward to spending some time with him tomorrow! Pretty bad when you look when you can only get time with your teenager when their sick!! LOL

Well… If I kept blogging I would be rambling… I am so tired I can barely focus on the screen.. Donnie is reaching over to rub my leg as if to say… it’s time to go to sleep… so I will say good night…

Disappearing…

christyslade — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 14:00:59 +0000

ok.. so this is so cool how things just come together. I have been wanting to blog – not for any reason but just to get my thoughts out there and finally made the time to sign up… then comes picking the theme… what to do… and i realized… i don’t know what theme fits me b/c i’m not sure about alot of things about myself. I realized a few years back that over the last several years I was taking on my husbands thoughts, dreams and passions. I would only eat what he ate, do what the kids wanted , listen too what they wanted on the radio while I was slowly disappearing. On top of that this world gives you so many choices – hip hop, rap, country, screamo,(NOT), inspirational, pop, Coke, Pepsi, Oreo’s, Chocolate Chip, and let’s don’t even talk about coffee!! I have seemed to get overwhelmed, lost in the madness of choices…SO- today as i picked through the themes for this blog i saw this one!! Holy COW!! I LOVE banana smoothie’s!! THIS I KNOW!!! Haven’t had one in years so this is the PERFECT place for me to start bloggin’ – exposing who I’ve been, who I am and who I want to become…

It’s tough living and feeling you disappear at times. The need to explore where those thoughts and emotions stem from and how they move me . I have learned that “gettin’ understanding” is so powerful! When I start noticing I’m the one in the back, the one hidden, behind, the one lost in it all I wonder how i got there. I’m not referring to not being in a crowd or anything physical… just the emotional disappearing. I suppose if I don’t know what I like -I can not stand my ground, make my point, or maybe I do at times know what I like, what I want but just feel I’m not heard. Maybe that’s it… maybe I have found things I like in the past, things that interests me but haven’t been heard!!! Is being heard that powerful?? Who knew?

So today I will pay attention to the things I like, move towards gettin’ understanding, and try to learn how to be heard…